Having a spiritual experience is very much akin to being in a boat on a stormy sea, because it is never a calm and peaceful experience. It is fraught with pain and complexity, frequent outbursts of frustration at the inability to clearly and peaceably communicate with God at all times, and a questioning of his commitment to everyone in the kingdom of God at your cost and expense.
We often forget that it was we who said "Send me, Lord" not quite knowing for what we were being sent, or to whom, and never fully understanding the dire cost of our commitment. But God is faithful, and he will never give us more than we can bear, nor will he ever allow us to face the gates of hell and damnation. God is faithful. Will you be faithful to your commitment?
The Lord God Almighty El Shaddai